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Game News~ ¢¾ Updated ;; 11/5/08 A new year has come to Dreamside, and that means new students, new horses ... New trouble. A virus running through the stable is holding off Equestrian Team plans. Avid riders are anxiously awaiting veterinarian verdicts as their favorite horses are inspected for the virus, and spending the day at the dorm in fear as others are being shipped away for quarantine. Never knowing which ones will return and which ones won't.
It's so ironic as goodbyes are being made to the seniors and horses leaving us, while hellos are being made to our new students. Everything's changing, even the school itself, as students try to focus on things other than the horses that were once so vital to the academy.
An uprising is forming against barn management. The students that were angry for whoever bought the diseased horses and brought them in spread the news to others. And some people will take any excuse to get in on a fight. As the gang violence is trying to be controlled and the barn doors stay locked, the world seems to be rotating in a completely new direction this winter. Dreamside Academy :ll: On Ice.
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Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Thread Started on Jan 16, 2009, 11:38pm »
Jace walked down the path that circled the park, so many times he had walked this path, but that seemed like a million miles away now. So many things had happened in the past 4 months he had been gone. For one, as he saw it, he was a better person. He had quit his old ways and had given up on drugs and alcohol, except for cigarettes, he smirked slightly as he put the Camel to his lips and took a long drag. He let the smoke tear at his lungs for a moment before he exhauled the smoke wandering aimlessly towards the sky.
His black Converses skufffed a bit on the sidewalked as he hit a familiar uneven patch in the pavement. This was where he first met Lil, he reminisced as he stopped walking. He sat on the bench where they he first run into each other, him wasted and on the verge of a blackout. She saved him, until she practically killed him in a car accident.
He absentmindedly pushed his bangs out of his eyes as the recurring thoughts ran through his mind. So many memories threatened to braek through the vault he had sealed in his mind for so long. He almost didn't even come back here. As he stood at the terminal in Montana his legs almost didn't let him come. But he pushed forward.
Now that he was here he was almost scared of what could be. What had happened to Lil? His Lillith, he did still love her dearly. She was all he thought about in Montana. It killed him to have to leave her behind like that. She was so fragile sometime, but other times she was so strong. What happened to her? Where was she?
Ahh and then there was Cassie, the forbidden fruit that always had some strange grip on him that was near impossible to ignore. She appealed to him in every sense of being. They had something strong, well at least they did at one point. But that never got on right. Things were too complicated and confusing, was it possible to love two girls at the same time for two completely different reasons?
Oh the possibilities, was this why his mind was telling him not to come back? Would it be too much stress for a newly clean addict? He shook her head, his bangs falling again in his eyes as he looked up. Hearing a set of footfalls coming closer on the path ahead. His heart raced a bit as the possibilites ran through his head. Lil? Cassie? Or some other person he didn't know? What chapters lay ahead of him in this new installment at Dreamside?...only fate knew.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #1 on Jan 17, 2009, 6:37pm »
&& What you are, Just another cut away. Now you're scarred, And these scars won't fade.
Today was just like any other day, here at Dreamside. They never had any real bad weather over here in California, so it was sunny, but cold, and dry. Not cold like they had some places, but for California it was cold. I had checked the thermometer outside my dorm before I left, and it said approximately 30 degrees. Farenheit, that is. Who calculated the temp. in Celcius anymore?
I entered the park, wearing only my casual clothes, the usual -- jeans, band t-shirt (it happened to be Slipknot today, although I wasn't totally into all of their music), worn over that, an Avenged Sevenfold hoodie/sweatshirt. It could pass as either. Small enough to be a hoodie, but heavy enough to be a sweatshirt. My black Converse All Stars that I would never be caught without, along with my Ipod, the song Scarred by Kevin Rudolf blared through my ears, and I quietly sang along as I began my walk around the park for the day.
The park wasn't all that busy today, suprising for a Saturday afternoon. The cold breeze whipped my black hair around in my face. I stopped for a second, pulling it out from my face and from my vivid blue eyes, from what i've been told they could take anyone's breath away. But I didn't believe it. I wasn't that beautiful. Although everyone said that, even the prettiest people. Maybe we all thought this because we had to live with ourselves every day. That was a possibility. But oh well, even if I was that georgeous, I wasn't going to brag and take advantage of it.
I contined to walk, and walk, and walk. What more? I came here every day to think. Think about life, Dreamside, my horses. Anything that could possibly get stuck in my mind for a while. I suddenly smelled a hint of a smoke scent in the air. From being around Brett so often, I knew it was cigarette smoke. Was he here too? I looked up ahead, to see if I could see if there was anyone up ahead I would want to run into, or if I wanted to turn around right now and walk away. Luckily, my vision was 20/20, so I could see accurately. What I spotted was, definetly not Brett. But a teen, like mme, who looked about my age. Black hair, tall, wore converse. He looked somewhat familiar, but I couldn't catch who. Who did I know who had black hair, was tall, wore converse and smoked? I knew that I knew someone, but I couldn't think of who. My head was telling me just to turn around and walk away, but my heart was telling me to keep walking forward. I learned to always listen to my heart, it's what got me this far in life already.
I continued to walk forward. Oh, my heart. Where would it bring me this time? Would it be an exciting re-uniting with a friend? Or would it be one of my all time enemies that I wished would just die? That would be a good time to have Brett with me. Haha. He would murder anyone I told him to. But that was just my bad side coming out. We didn't want that right now. I needed... confidence.
I was still trying to think of who this could be, when it hit me. Jace. Jace Evans. Seriously? I had almost forgotten about him, to tell the truth. But at the same time he was still in my mind the entire time.. At the back of it. But really, I still thought of him every now and then. I remember I met him at the coffee spot place, he somehow won my heart instantly. What was it about him that I really liked? His confidence, maybe? He showed a lot of that the day I met him, the way he flirted with me. It was cute. But, I have to admit, I fell too hard for him too fast. I guess we never really started off on the right foot, somehow. Because shortly after he got caughht cheating -- cheated me with Lillith, cheated Lillith with me. I really wanted to slap him then, I don't know why I didn't. When I approached him now, should I do that? For payback? Or should I give him a 'second chance?' Maybe he had changed. I don't know. I guess I would just do it casually - approach him, try to start a conversation. See where things lead.
"Long time no see." I said as I came up behind him, shutting my ipod off, wrapping the cord around it and stuffing it in the pocket of my hoodie. Maybe I should have walked away. I don't know. I bit my lip, a habit I always did, normally without realizing it whenever I was either nervous, or thinking. In this case, it was both. How would things end up after this? Where would this all lead to? Several other questions crossed my mind, as well. As I wated for a reply. Out of all the people I could possibly run into at Dreamside, it was Jace? I didn't think that in a bad way. Just a thought.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #2 on Jan 18, 2009, 9:05am »
nobody on the road; nobody on the beach. i feel it in the air, the summer's out of reach. empty streets, the sun goes down. i'm driving by your house though i know you're not home.
A long time had passed without him. Maybe nobody else looking in on Lillith's life would know who he was, but it didn't matter as long as she still knew. As long as she still remembered his face, the specific color of his eyes, every flaw that made her love him. She'd made sure she wouldn't forget him after he'd disappeared with no notice, months ago. For the first two weeks she sat on her bed, alone, expecting a phone call from him or some kind of contact as she cried her eyes out. But she still kept that picture of him in her mind. There hadn't been a day since he'd left that Lillith hadn't thought of him. Even after she'd figured he was past the point of no return.
After awhile, her broken heart sealed up with the help of her friends. There were always the cracks to remind her of what Jace did for her, but if she didn't look, she didn't have to think about them. Out of sight, out of mind. Anything but the case for the boy that left her after she had saved him. Some thanks. It was true Lillith still held some bitterness for him, but more than anything, she just wanted to see him again. She knew it. She didn't want to save face and tell him a lie if he ever showed again.
This track was the one her thoughts were on this morning. She was back from a journey to find herself that had ended unsuccessfully and she couldn't shake the feeling that she was walking with a stranger at this moment. Lillith looked around her and she was alone. Maybe she was going insane. That would be just like her at this point, and it would have been just like Jace to take everything from her. Even sanity.
The sight of him ahead of her confirmed these thoughts. Now she was seeing hallucinations. She couldn't say that she didn't like them though. He looked as gorgeous as ever, his hair falling in his face, and yet, something different about him. She saw him lift a cigarette to his lips and take a smoke. A pang of guilt stabbed her in the stomach. So she hadn't fixed him in the end, had she? Then another stab of the stuff as she saw him look around with lonely eyes. Something about him made her want to run and hide like a little girl. Another part made her want to run toward him and jump into his arms, also as if she were eight, not eighteen. But he was only a hallucination, and it would make no sense to do either.
Then another hallucination, a figure that would not belong in her dream, only in a nightmare, came into the picturesque scene. Not because she harbored ill feelings for the girl, but because her apperance meant the two mirages were together. And that was the stuff horror movies were made of. 'Long time no see.' She heard the girl say. The gears began to turn.
Hallucinations didn't say anything, right? Somewhere in the back of her mind, she thought she'd read something about that. Or maybe she was just making a wild assumption and seeing what she wanted to see only. That Jace was really here. She took a deep breath of the air around her and smelled the smoke from his cigarette, the dew on the grass beside the sidewalk, the morning sunlight. Everything. No, this was too real. Yet at the same time, too good to be true. Jace was really here. Lillith gave herself a moment to think about that. Jace was really here. The tears began to stream down her face and Lillith had to fight her feet from breaking into a run with tooth and nail.
This was the place where she had first met him, drunk on the very same bench he sat on now. The memories flooded in with every fallen tear on the pavement. And now she was upon them. Surely they had seen her coming, but her voice was too shaky to say anything substantial. 'Jace.' She murmered his name, standing a few feet away from them, her arms open, waiting for him to fill them. Let's just hope Lillith was right and these two people aren't hallucinations.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #3 on Jan 18, 2009, 11:53pm »
[center]Jace’s breath cause in his throat as he saw Cassie round the bend in the trail ahead. He looked down at his feet, he felt guilt for how things had ended between them. He had never meant to hurt her, or to use her the way he did. It just kind of happened, neither of them had intended for it to happen the way it did. The way he saw it, he could do one of three things:
1) He could keep his eyes locked to his black worn chucks and let her pass as if he had never seen her, 2) He could act normal, as if he wasn’t a complete dick for what he did and that their rendezvous in the woods never happened, or 3) He could grow a pair and face those impossibly blue eyes that were coming closer and closer.
It wasn’t much of a choice what he had to do, so he put the cigarette to his lips and took a long drag, throwing it to the ground to the ground as he stood up.
He heard her speak, the voice he remembered so well, in some ways for good reasons. But others were not good reasons and it made him feel ashamed to recall those. ” Yeah it has been a while “ he said looking her in the eyes for the first time. ” I kinda up and disappeared on everybody “ he added with a smirk. ” I’m sure everyone thought I was dead…which isn’t that far from the truth “ he said trailing off remembering his painful detox. Just then another pair of muffled footsteps were audible coming down the trail. Jace turned to look as a person came around the bend.
Yet again Jace almost choked as he met eyes with the person, he blinked once everything was going in slow motion, or it seemed so. He took in her features, he knew them all too well, but his mind lavished in taking them in again. It was amazing how much she had changed since he last saw her, but she was the same person, or at least he hoped. No matter if she had changed, he always knew that she would always have an air of perfection about her, even if she shouldn’t sense it herself. Her perfection in his eyes would never fade or lose its luster, nor would it lose the tight grip it had upon him. His eyes took in her curves and formation, not an ounce of lust, but rather admiration. But then he saw the glimmer of tears. It was like he had dodged a bullet as the adrenaline began to rush his veins.
Lil seemed to be walking in a dreamlike trance, but Jace knew she was never the kind of person the sleep walked, so he knew that the way she was acting was cause by him. The guilt began to shower through him. He had left her, alone…with nothing. He hadn’t even called or tried to contact her. The reasons he had assured himself were bombproof now looked like crushed eggshells. ” Lil…I’m so sor… “ he began to say, realizing that the words would not suffice. ” You didn’t deserve what I did to you, any of it…you shouldn’t ever begin to forgive me… “ everything he tried to say seemed stupid and juvenile. ” I DO love you, more than anything… “ he didn’t know where to begin to explain his story to her…it was all so complicated.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #4 on Jan 19, 2009, 2:02pm »
I'm not in love, this is not my heart.
Oh, it killed her to see him like this. She wished that he didn't think she was upset with him. She had been, of course, but the wave of surprise at seeing him again when she thought she never would had taken it all away. Lillith shook her head, smiling softly as she realized he still called her by the nickname he had given her when they were still together. Were they still together? She didn't know, maybe that's why he had left. Was he tired of her? She shook these final thoughts away and rushed toward him, jumping into his arms, locking her legs around his torso and leaning in to kiss him very gently and passionately. If Cassie didn't like it, she could look away. They had put this reunion off long enough, and Lillith wasn't about to wait another second away from him.
After a few moments, she let herself go, her legs unwrapping from around him to fall to the ground, her arms falling from his neck to his waist. She stood at just the right heighth with him where when her head fell against his chest, she could hear his heart beating right in her ear. She'd missed that sound, everything about him. The muscles of his chest and back were still strong and solid, his arms still warm and comforting. Yet his eyes weren't glazed over. Was he off the drugs? Had she helped more than she'd thought? Still, though, his lips tasted like smoke. Lillith fought it off one more time to kiss him again. 'I'm not angry with you.' She murmered, staring up into his crystalline blue eyes. 'I love you, Jace. How could I? I missed you so much, just seeing you again. If you were gone forever after this, I could live with myself. Because I had you with me one more time.' She murmered, her head falling against his chest again, arms still locked tight around the boy, convinced that only divine intervention would stop her from being with him.
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Re: Every mile a memory [Cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #5 on Jan 19, 2009, 7:35pm »
Jace stood there for a moment with nothing to say, how could he make up for what he had done with just words? And then as if nothing at all had changed she moved to wards him. She jumped into his arms, as if nothing had changed or happened, as if the 4 months gone had only been a few hours. One arm supported her as she wrapped her arms around his neck, the other was at her face, if it was rough he hadn't meant it to be. But as soon as her lips touched his it was like the drugs that he had pulled out of his life. He pulled her lips closer to his, though it was hard to see how they could get any closer. It was like she was his own personal brand of heroine, he couldn't get enough.
Lil had left him short of breath as she pulled her lips away from his and allowed her feet to finally touch the ground again. The full impact of the kind of effect she had on him finally came into perspective. He was a totally different person when she was around. It was like she really physically changed him whenever he was in her presence. He listened to her as she spoke, she seemed just as out of breath as he was. " I won't ever leave you " he murmured, looking too the ground and then back up. He was truly ashamed for how he had handled things.
In all honesty he had expected that things would be bad he returned. He had expected that Lil would not want to speak to him and that it would be a struggle just to get her to agree to talk to him. He couldn't help but tell himself that he didn't deserve her. Lil deserved a man that would never have hurt her like he did. She didn't deserve to have been treated the way she was. Maybe that's part of the reason Jace went away.
Jace cleared his throat and decided he would tell her why he went away " I left at first to...kill myself " he struggled to choke out before he continued " Part of me wanted you to move on and find a better man that would treat you right. So i left. I partied and did everything i could find, weed, coke, alcohol, pills...anything i could to try and dull the pain, i don't even know how long i went at it, days? weeks? But then another part of me showed up, one that stopped me from doing wanted to do...that other part of me wanted to change so that i could become that man that you deserve. " he paused, looking into her eyes, trying to read her. " So i got in contact with this man that i used to know. He took to me a farm in Montana, i was still so f*cked up when i got there that i tried to fight it even though i knew i had to go. But eventually i got into detox. It was rough, it might have been easier if i had just killed myself, but then i realized that eventually you would find out and i couldn't stand to hurt you anymore than i have....so needless to say i survived through that. I stuck around for a while so i wouldn't be tempted, or at least so i couldn't fulfill the temptations so easily. " he said looking away again. The temptations were like sledgehammers in his head pounding away all the time with no relent. " But i couldn't stand it anymore, i had to come back to see you, to apologize.... " he said trailing off lost in her eyes.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #6 on Jan 19, 2009, 11:39pm »
As Jace began to tell the story of why he disappeared, the mood around her began to change drastically. She had wanted this to be a happy reunion, no looking back at the past, and only at their future together. And there was some of that in his speech. But it stood in the shadow thrown out by the huge news that Jace had left to try and kill himself. As soon as she heard this, the shock set in. She couldn't hear Jace's heartbeat over her breath, falling quick and in gasps as if someone had just knocked the air out of her. Tears fell down silently, and she ended up staring at his feet, unable to face him. Finally, she found her words. 'B-b-but Jace ... you are the man that I need right now.' She shook, sobbing. 'You already were. And I'm so proud of you for overcoming this, but ... I'm scared.' She sobbed. Normally, her cheeks would have been stained black by now from the tears, but she hadn't been wearing makeup for awhile. Jace wasn't around. There was no one else to impress, she didn't care. She continued on, still shaky, her knees ready to buckle. 'How... how do I know this won't happen again? And if it does, will I get any communication? Now her hands were at his face, one hand pushing his hair back affectionately, reassuringly. 'I promise, baby, I'm not trying to put you on a guilt trip. I just ... don't know if I could live through that over again.' Did Jace not see that by leaving to kill himself that he had left Lillith to do the same thing? She knew it would have been overdramatic and that she didn't want Jace to be hurt if he found out, a thousand miles or more away, but suicide crossed her mind more than a couple times.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #7 on Jan 22, 2009, 8:14pm »
&& What you are, just another cut away. Now you're scarred, And these scars won't fade.
I was having a decently good time so far. It was interesting hearing what Jace had to say. ” Yeah it has been a while “ and I’m sure everyone thought I was dead…which isn’t that far from the truth “ I couldn't help but noticed he didn't seem too shocked to see me. Of course. Because the last time I saw him he was with Lillith. Honestly, I hated her. She was a serious drama queen, and drama was the last thing I needed in my life. Again. I stopped the past memories from flooding my brain by responding to Jace's comment, "Nah... everyone just had no clue what had happened." I smirked, hoping everything would turn out alright. I hadn't seen Lillith around, either. Which was a good sign, I guess. I spoke too soon.
Of course, with my luck, hear comes Liillith. 'Jace.' I couldn't help but notice the sick and fake looking tears running down her face. Ugh. I somewhat ignored her, the best I could. But I couldn't help but listen in on their sickening conversation. He just seemed to forget about me when she arrived. What did that prove? That Jace was still basically the ruthless jerk who I had known last. This was pissing me off already. Hearing them talk, it made me sick. No, I wasn't jealous. And right now I wasn't afraid to tell them what was on my mind.
"My god people." I started off, acting bored. Jace had mentioned the reason he left was to really kill himself? Wow, that's cool. I knew I had been through much more shit than them but I didn't go off trying to kill myself. Sure, I used to have bad habits. But I had zero intentions to kill myself. "Please. With you people one thing goes wrong and BAM its "Oh my the only way out is suicide." Well baby, I know i've been through more shit then both of you combined. Do you wanna see the proof? I'd be happy to show you." Little did they know the proof was right under my sleeves, but they wouldn't be able to tell by the mysterious yet flirty and sarcastic tone I put on while saying it. I pulled it off well. "I mean seriously people. You seriously must be real weak if you wanna do that to yourself. Stop living in the past and present and look towards the future. Stop sitting around on your lazy asses and make something of yourself. Oh, and why are you doing all this sappy love crap now? I'm right here people, isn't it suppost to be kind of a rivalry? I know you hate me, Lillith, and I could care less. 'Cause trust me, I hate you just the same, if not more. Both of you can build a bridge and get over yourselfs, and get a life." They may not think I had a right to say this, but their opinion didn't matter. I knew I did, and I wan't about to spill my entire personal life on them. But I really had stopped cutting a few months ago. But i still had severe scars. God dammit, whiney little emo kids. I would be able to understand if their twin brother did drugs and kept getting hospitalized, their best friend had gotten murdered, their parents were on the rocks, fighting about their twin brother's drug problems, and then the best girl your twin brother could get with, who also happened to be another one of my best friends died, causing your brother to go into extreme depression and do even heavier and more dangerous drugs. That was a decent reason. I knew I probably shouldn't have said all that, but hey, that's what happens when I get pissed off. That was only one of the very few reasons you didn't want to piss me off, I blew up. I debated if I should leave or not... eh, that was up to them. "Oh, by the way, if you want me to leave so you can finish telling your stupid love story and stop feeling bad for yourself, i'll be more than happy." I was ready to lleave any time they asked for it.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #8 on Jan 26, 2009, 6:50pm »
Jace shook his head, he knew that she wouldn’t take it very well when he told her the truth. He reached up with both hands and traced away the wet lines on either side of her face. He quickly pulled her face to his to stop the panicked talk that was coming from her now. After a second when he felt her relax a bit under her hands he released and looked at her again. ” It’ s not something to worry about. I realize now that I have a lot to live for that I never counted before “ he said, giving her a reassuring nod. His hands traced down her neck and arms to her hands, he wrapped his fingers in hers. Not once in this time did he forget that Cassie was here, nor did he regret the way he had acted upon his reunion with Lil. No doubt that if Cassie was in Lil’s place she wouldn’t mind sharing affection in front of someone after a long absence. He looked over and saw Cassie, she looked angry and almost betrayed. ” Look Cassie, I really hope that we can.. “ he said before being cut off ….all learn to be friends he finished saying in his head as he listened to what she said. As she spoke the blood began to boil and bubble inside of him like liquid rock. He let her finish, the anger inside of him ready to explode as soon as she hinted that she was done talking about something she knew absolutely nothing about. Once she subsided ranting Jace let his fingers release themselves from Lil’s grip. He faced Cassie and took a step forward, narrowing the distance between them to less than a foot. His lip twitched as he began to speak, an almost deathly hateful look on his face. ” First off, Cassie “ he spat her name, almost as if there were venom on his lips. ” You know nothing about me, or anything that has happened to me before I came here. If you want to compete and say that you’ve had it worse then go ahead. But I don’t care and I know that you haven’t seen or had half of the troubles I’ve had in my life. “ he said thinking bad to his childhood, sending a shuddered down his spine. Both of his parents had been addicts, both had various drugs of choice mainly of which was alcohol, heroine, and cocaine. He lived with them, till he was nine years old, until his father killed his mother and then committed suicide. He was in one of his raging drunken fits and pulled the gun on his mother as she was in the back room, adulterously earning money for her next fix. Jace was put into a childcare facility and was bounced around from shitty foster care to even shittier foster care till he was 16. Finally he got a break and went to live with his uncle in NYC. There he had adopted hi s terrible addiction, though he had been smoking cigarettes before he went to NYC. Finally his uncle got tired of Jace coming in at 3 a.m. every morning and he sent him here. It was not the first time he had attempted to commit suicide either. There were many down times in his life where he would recall the sexual and physical abuses of his past and put a gun to his head, only to renigg and release the trigger. His life was nothing more than a worthless pile of shit until he had finally found worth and true friends at Dreamside. ” I thought that coming here was the best choice of my life, I had finally found friends or so I had thought “ he said, sending an even harsher glare at her. ” But whatever Cassie, obviously you’ve said how you feel. And I’m glad you did “ he said. ” You just reassured me that I picked the right girl….so go on get the hell out of here. You’ll just be that mistake in my past that I’ll always regret “ he added harshly at the end. Regretting what he said as soon as the words tumbled off his lips.
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Re: Every mile a memory [cassie, maybe Lil?] « Reply #9 on Feb 7, 2009, 10:42am »
I felt Jace be ripped away from me, verbatim. It hurt, like a part of me was gone, like I'd just had my right arm torn off. However, Cassie's words did nothing. They sunk in, but nothing happened. The only pain I felt was that of being torn away from Jace, even if for just a moment. She didn't understand. And I couldn't make her. 'Look, Cassie, I don't know what's happened to you or who you think you are to be saying like this, but you're not our grandmother. Don't be giving me advice about how to live my life. You've cut yourself, you've been in pain before. We realize that. Why are you trying to hold it over us? It doesn't make you any better. Congratulations, you really do have a crappier life than we do. Hope you're happy with what you just accomplished.' I sighed, rolling my eyes. Really, why did people try and one-up each other on how much pain they'd been through? I hadn't cut myself, I didn't want to. I'd been through some things, but so had everyone else in the world. If anyone was being hypocritical and cowardly in this situation, it was Cassie. I supposed some things would never change.
'If you listened to Jace, you would know that part of the reason he came back was to see you. And you have no right to parade around being selfish and wallowing in your own pain. We'd be happy to help you with yours. It doesn't have to be about one person, here.' I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. I looked at the sky, trying to calm myself down. Some people I just wanted to take by the shoulders, shake them, and knock some sense into their heads. 'And no, I don't hate you. I can't come up with a reason for you to hate me, other than that you're insecure right now. But it's not helping you out to burn bridges like this. You'll just be lonelier. And don't lie and say that you're fine. Because you could be helped.' I lectured, my eyes burning. I felt like I was about to cry. Why did everyone have to be like this? I'd been so ready for a reunion, for everything to be okay again. 'So leave, if you think you could handle this better. But if you stay, don't expect the spotlight to be on you this whole time. I've been away from him as long as you have. Don't act like I didn't miss him, too.' I said, encircling my arms around Jace and suddenly feeling whole again, like I'd had something to stand for all along.
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